Snow day!!!

It was so nice just laying around this morning and not rushing!! I think I was in bed till like 8:30AM! I figured it would be another lazy day but that changed real quick when the kids started fighting!! So I called them all up stairs and we started to CLEAN!!! We cleaned the living room - I even dusted. The girls wiped down all the walls & cabinets in the kitchen. Then they wiped down the hall walls and the basement stairwell walls and cleaned the mud room. The 3 boys and I cleaned their room and S mopped the kitchen floor for me! It was so nice once it was all done!! Then I worked on laundry all day and worked on sorting some photos of S. The kids were hit and miss with the fighting!! Seemed like Little man would cause problems with both little boys! I made cowboy casserole for dinner and then it was time to get showers done. We got a call from the school district at about 7:30PM - 2 hour delay for tomorrow! Then at 8PM I put everyone to bed!! T got home at about 8:30ish or 9PM and I laid in my bed and read till I just couldn't keep my eyes open any more!!!

So this was a day that sucked!!

As we were getting the boys ready and out the door I was gathering all the towels to wash, I went in the girls room to see if I could find any and I was so disgusted with what I found!! It was a dump, a pig sty just a room filled with filth!! I was so pissed!! So I grabbed two 55 gallon black garbage bags and T and I emptied the whole room!! The only thing we left them was the clothes in their dressers and few clothes that were hung "neatly" in the closet!! They will not be getting their shit back for a very long time!! 

I spent the rest of the day working on a little bit of laundry and also worked on my Christmas album just a bit. Then I laid in bed and watched The Secret Life of the American Teenager - till like 3AM!!!

Kids had us up bright and early!

T was stuck cooking breakfast for everyone. Tiff and TJ dropped their kids off at like 10AM and left them there all day! Yes the boys had fun playing but I hate that my kids NEVER have any time with their grandparents with out those kids there!! I laid down stairs most of the day ignoring everyone, I hate being at my inlaws! We had left over meat/cheese for lunch. T had to clean their computer and set up their email and wireless blue ray player we got them. They ordered pizza for dinner and then we left - at about 5:30/6PM. The trip home was pretty uneventful and again we only stopped once!! We got home after 9PM and put everyone straight to bed, except Gman he needed a breathing treatment! Tim and I were so exhausted that we went straight to bed too!!

Wow, where to start!!!

Today was kind of a crappy Saturday!!! First we had to get up early because S had to be at the high school by 8:15AM because the band was traveling to Juniata College to play for their game and T had to work, the only good thing about that was T was able to drop her off!!! The kids and I hung out all morning - I scrapped some project life inserts and they watched TV. After a lunch of sandwiches and pringles I took the kids to JoAnn's to spend their money on rubber bands!!! Then we hit Michael's and then we headed home!! We lounge a bunch more and finally at about 4:30PM I text S to see where they were at - she said 20 minutes out. So I yelled for everyone to get shoes on and get in the van!! Once I got down there and got in the van I saw that my lights were on and someone had turned my key on - I flipped and no one would admit to doing it (even though I knew it was G), so I dropped that hammer and punished everyone - no dinner and straight to bed as soon as we got home!!! And believe it or not I held firm!!! R cried and waled and so did L and so did G - only C was quiet and went right to sleep!! Tim finally got home around 7ish (and brought me some awesome Christmas wood veneers from Michael's that he pick up all by himself!!!) and G finally admitted to doing it, everyone finally got quiet but him, I think he held on till after 8PM. It was quite the quiet night for me and although I do feel bad, what G did was sooooooooooo dangerous and he needs to learn that he can't do stuff like that and he definitely cant lie about it!! I'm going to bed now and I'm probably gonna read for a while, but not too late because they'll probably all be up mega early because they are hungry!!! Here are my pretties!!!

Weight Loss

Um, ya so I'm heading down this road again!! Ugh, I could just kick myself!!! I'm such a fast lazy ass who loved to shove food down her gullet!!! Last year I lost 50 lbs and I've managed to gain all but 10 lb of it back!! I'm so disgusted with myself so I've finally decided to try again to do something about it!!! So today was my first day back to counting calories and I did pretty well, I'm under by about 300 and I don't think I was hungry at all today and I was super good and drank like 2 HUGE glasses of water (of course that gave me heartburn all day long - bitch)!!! So as of this morning I'm re-starting this journey at 243.4 lbs and I'm hoping to be well on my way to UNDER 200 lbs by my 40th birthday in February!!! Of course my original goal was to be 150 by my 40th, but that's just not gonna happen!!! In fact I'm not even sure I'll ever get that low so for right now I have one goal and that goal is to get below 200 and STAY THERE!!!! Here's hoping I make it!!! I didn't take photos but maybe I will tomorrow and then just plug them in here - we will see!!!

What a day!!!

The kids had today off for teacher in service day but it was not a relaxing day!!! First off I couldn't sleep in - damn you 6AM!!! I was up early but then I did laze in bed for awhile, but I would have loved to sleep!!! Then I worked on laundry all day long!!! I swear I did like 5 loads!!! It was BS!!! I made like 4 dozen pumpkin muffins. But the worst part was the kids were hellions!!! Ugh, I swear they bitched and moaned and whined and fought all freaking day long!!! At one point I made all 5 of them get in bed!!! I just wanted to cry!!! I had to have S to the high school by 5:30PM for a football game and then the kids and I came home and I made pizza and then I went in my room to hide and wait for daddy!!! Thank goodness he left work a little early and when he got home I crawled in bed and was shortly fast asleep!! I was just done - so worn out and so frazzled!!! I didn't have anything left for anybody!!!

Night from hell!!

So last night was horrible, our first terrible night since the very beginning!!! C slept late from like 2PM till like 5:30PM and was then up and nursing most of the time till 8PM. Well at 8PM I change his diaper and swaddle him and we turn out the lights and I get in the recliner and start nursing him like I've done every night since birth. Well he would not go to sleep and my milk is so low at night as it is (just because that's normal for milk supply and also he nurses non stop all evening long) eventually he started fussing and pulling at the breast and not wanting to suck so I decided fine you can just get a bottle, so DH feeds him 3 ozs and he still is crying and not wanting to fall asleep so again I just take him and pop him on the breast and let him comfort suck and finally at 10:55PM after much rocking (be with him still fidgety in my arms) I lay him down. And honestly I wasn't even sure if he was gonna stay down so I laid on the couch and dozed on and off with DH bothering me repeatedly to come to bed and I finally did at about midnight. It didn't help that DH was in a terrible mood when he came home and snapped at the kids and I had a headache from hell that wouldn't go away!!! Of course C was up at 4AM and nursed for a bit and I rocked him and tried to put him back in his bed and I again laid on the couch and dozed and then both him and G woke up at 5:45AM **ARGH**

DH of course gets G up and I'm like you know in a few weeks when it's daylight savings time we are going to be SCREWED!!! Just put his ass back in bed and let him fuss back to sleep....because right now at almost 10AM his is whiny and bitchy and acting like a little bastard for me while DH is off at work kid freaking free!!! Of course C didn't go back to sleep either and was being a pain in the butt and eventually I just stuck him in his swing turned off the monitor and climb in bed....I was seriously at the end of my rope!!! He still hasn't slept yet at almost 10AM and DH gave him a bottle sometime between 7AM and 8AM and I just nursed him for 30 minutes!!! So again i stuck him in the swing and turned the vacuum on in his room.....hey the noise will either sooth him to sleep or drowned out his cries so I can't hear them!!!

DH says just put him on a bottle but I don't think that would solve many of our problems because he nurses fine it's everything else I have to deal with that's the problems. G is still gonna be a whiny PITA if C's on bottles because G gets up to early. C will still need rocked to sleep if he is on bottles. **ARGH** Part of me wants to just go to bottles but then the stubborn part of me won't let me do it!!! We'll see how today goes and then tonight.....if tonight is as bad as last night the bottles just might win out!!!

And to top things all of....I'm crabby, G's crabby and C's crabby.....I have to take all 5 kids to the dentist today and if we are don there before 4:15PM I have to take all 5 kids to S's clarinet lesson and then come home and try and feed everyone!!! **ARGH** I want to run away....I really really do......I wouldn't even look back if I got the chance....sad I know...but true....probably makes me a horrible mother and wife but at this point in time I really don't care...I wanna be selfish and do something for ME for a change!!! Well I gotta go check to make sure my sweeper hasn't worn a hole in the rug in C's room!!! Hope you all enjoy your day better then me!!!

~~Later