Blargh!!!

Today was worse then yesterday!! Hahahaha!! I didn't get to go back to bed because I decided the kids needed pancakes for their lunches so by the time I got them made and cleaned up the boys were up and there was no sense in going back to bed!! 

The devil lunch!!! Hahaha!!

I got everyone off to school and then ran to Dollar Tree to pick up a few things and then to JoAnn's to get another pair of skeleton gloves (because I gave C's to G this morning because his hands were cold) and then I went and parked in front of the school I walked up to the post office and mailed my swap cards out and then back to the preschool to spy for about 45 minutes! 

The little boy on the right in the blue shirt is C's best friend. He talks non-stop about his, it's adorable!! He is always saying "I love B!! He's my best friend!!!" *heart melts*

Then I ran home for about 45 minutes and then back to pick up C!! Came home and we had lunch and then I spent the afternoon working on my Halloween mini books!!! We had cowboy casserole for dinner and then S needed dropped off at school at 6:30pm for county chorus practice!! Came home and messed around online while yelling at the kids, trying to bath them and having a disastrous facetime with hubby!! I was (and still am) in a terrible mood and he has to take everything personal!! Of course I'm in a terrible mood, I'm stuck in cold ass PA with whiny bratty fighting kids and he's in sunny Cancun where everything is free and he has to answer to NO ONE!!! Blah!!!!!!!!! Time like this makes me wish I had friends that could come over and help me or at least keep me company in my misery!!!! Blah...........enough!!! Ok, so I managed not to kill anyone before we left the house at 7:45PM to pick S up!! Then it was in the house and everyone straight to bed!!! Then I sat down to write this and now I'm going to grab a bag of mini reese piece pieces that I was going to bake with but instead I'm going to eat the entire bag while I lay in bed and read my book!!! Hahaha!!! Later!!!

What a day!!!

The kids had today off for teacher in service day but it was not a relaxing day!!! First off I couldn't sleep in - damn you 6AM!!! I was up early but then I did laze in bed for awhile, but I would have loved to sleep!!! Then I worked on laundry all day long!!! I swear I did like 5 loads!!! It was BS!!! I made like 4 dozen pumpkin muffins. But the worst part was the kids were hellions!!! Ugh, I swear they bitched and moaned and whined and fought all freaking day long!!! At one point I made all 5 of them get in bed!!! I just wanted to cry!!! I had to have S to the high school by 5:30PM for a football game and then the kids and I came home and I made pizza and then I went in my room to hide and wait for daddy!!! Thank goodness he left work a little early and when he got home I crawled in bed and was shortly fast asleep!! I was just done - so worn out and so frazzled!!! I didn't have anything left for anybody!!!

Night from hell!!

So last night was horrible, our first terrible night since the very beginning!!! C slept late from like 2PM till like 5:30PM and was then up and nursing most of the time till 8PM. Well at 8PM I change his diaper and swaddle him and we turn out the lights and I get in the recliner and start nursing him like I've done every night since birth. Well he would not go to sleep and my milk is so low at night as it is (just because that's normal for milk supply and also he nurses non stop all evening long) eventually he started fussing and pulling at the breast and not wanting to suck so I decided fine you can just get a bottle, so DH feeds him 3 ozs and he still is crying and not wanting to fall asleep so again I just take him and pop him on the breast and let him comfort suck and finally at 10:55PM after much rocking (be with him still fidgety in my arms) I lay him down. And honestly I wasn't even sure if he was gonna stay down so I laid on the couch and dozed on and off with DH bothering me repeatedly to come to bed and I finally did at about midnight. It didn't help that DH was in a terrible mood when he came home and snapped at the kids and I had a headache from hell that wouldn't go away!!! Of course C was up at 4AM and nursed for a bit and I rocked him and tried to put him back in his bed and I again laid on the couch and dozed and then both him and G woke up at 5:45AM **ARGH**

DH of course gets G up and I'm like you know in a few weeks when it's daylight savings time we are going to be SCREWED!!! Just put his ass back in bed and let him fuss back to sleep....because right now at almost 10AM his is whiny and bitchy and acting like a little bastard for me while DH is off at work kid freaking free!!! Of course C didn't go back to sleep either and was being a pain in the butt and eventually I just stuck him in his swing turned off the monitor and climb in bed....I was seriously at the end of my rope!!! He still hasn't slept yet at almost 10AM and DH gave him a bottle sometime between 7AM and 8AM and I just nursed him for 30 minutes!!! So again i stuck him in the swing and turned the vacuum on in his room.....hey the noise will either sooth him to sleep or drowned out his cries so I can't hear them!!!

DH says just put him on a bottle but I don't think that would solve many of our problems because he nurses fine it's everything else I have to deal with that's the problems. G is still gonna be a whiny PITA if C's on bottles because G gets up to early. C will still need rocked to sleep if he is on bottles. **ARGH** Part of me wants to just go to bottles but then the stubborn part of me won't let me do it!!! We'll see how today goes and then tonight.....if tonight is as bad as last night the bottles just might win out!!!

And to top things all of....I'm crabby, G's crabby and C's crabby.....I have to take all 5 kids to the dentist today and if we are don there before 4:15PM I have to take all 5 kids to S's clarinet lesson and then come home and try and feed everyone!!! **ARGH** I want to run away....I really really do......I wouldn't even look back if I got the chance....sad I know...but true....probably makes me a horrible mother and wife but at this point in time I really don't care...I wanna be selfish and do something for ME for a change!!! Well I gotta go check to make sure my sweeper hasn't worn a hole in the rug in C's room!!! Hope you all enjoy your day better then me!!!

~~Later